you may be wondering what this post is about. well, so am i. 🙂 but one thing i do know for sure is that my fingers have been itching to write as there have been several times that i’ve opened up my laptop over the course of the past few months trying to come up with something to post. after many drafts simply just thrown away into the trash, i’ve come to the conclusion that i just want to write about how things are going on in my life lately.
about a month and a half ago, i embarked on a journey that’s been gripped with a great amount of fear and anxiety due to an event that took place in my life that is completely out of my control. i’m still stuck in this storm up until this very day, but instead of crashing down with the waves, i have learned to dance in the rain. some of these days in the past month and a half were spent crying in my room for hours, wishing that this unexpected chapter in my life was over. some of these days were spent pouring my heart out to God asking him to take the pain away. some of these days were spent finding strength in all of my weaknesses when i realized that there are so many other people in this world who have walked through the same situation as me. but most importantly, some of these days have also been filled with hope and love as the few people in my circle who i know i can trust wholeheartedly gave me comfort and strength when i needed it the most.
now, i wish i could tell you everything. but at this time, i know that some things are better left unsaid. however, when this chapter of my life finally comes to a close, i would be delighted to share more about this journey in detail as i believe this story will resonate to many young people today. to my cherished friends and family who may be reading this, please do not worry about me. this has nothing to do with my grades, health, or family life. just kindly keep me in your prayers. ❤
that being said, i don’t know how i would have got through this dark and gloomy season of my life without being able to bring forth all of my burdens to the Light of this world. through constantly communicating with God, i am pleased to say that my worries, anxieties, and fears have dramatically decreased from the get-go. i have truly come to realize that He is good – in every season, in everything.
probably one of the biggest fears that i’ve had to tackle throughout the past month and a half is the fear of not being good enough. self-image has always been a huge struggle for me and this situation made me nearly forget who i am and what i am worth.
what i want to share with you is a text that i have seen from someone that i know. the text reads,
“Remember who your God is, and how He views you.”
this text spoke to me in more ways than i can explain. it’s so easy to forget who God really is sometimes. He created this wonderful world we live in with mountains, oceans, and animals that display His majesty. but on top of that, He created you and me and He treasures us more deeply than any of His creations. i think that’s truly amazing. i know that i’ll never fit society’s narrow mold of beauty, but knowing that the God of the universe gave up His life for me speaks volumes of what He feels about me. for me, to be that valuable to Him is worth more than any form of validation that this world can offer.
the clouds in this storm have started to roll away and the support i have been receiving feels like a gentle kiss of sunlight on my skin after a long, cold winter. however, there is still so much fighting for me to see this battle that i am involved with won, but my hope is placed in the Mighty Warrior, King of all fights.
to any of you who are going through a storm, a battle, or a difficult season, i just wanted to say that Jesus loves you. He is with you, and He is for you. as I am seeing Him work miracles and breakthrough, let me assure you that He will do the same for you.
to all of you who read up until the very end, thank you. there is nothing like venting out my feelings in the way i do best. i wish for you to experience God’s peace no matter where you are in your life like i have at this time.
with so much love and gratitude,