MUSICAL MUSINGS.

PLAYLIST 03 | SPRING FAVOURITES

PLAYLIST 03 | SPRING FAVOURITES

  1. Wasn’t Expecting That – Jamie Lawson
  2. Running Home To You – Grant Gustin
  3. Wild – Troye Sivan
  4. Happier – Ed Sheeran
  5. Escape – Kehlani
  6. Reborn – Christiane Hubbel
  7. If I Can’t Love Her – Josh Groban
  8. Mercy – Shawn Mendes
  9. The One – Kodaline
  10. Beautiful Day – Jamie Grace

If you take the time to listen to the songs I listened above, you can probably tell that my taste in music is very varied… anyways, enjoy. 🙂

xo,

Ainah

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MUSICAL MUSINGS.

TOO SOON – KINA GRANNIS.

 

Lyrics:

Sometimes it’s hard to look you in the eye
The mess I’ve created it stands idly by
And I don’t expect the dishes to do themselves
But that sure would be nice

Cause I am moving circles, falling back
My past has caught up to me, and I’ve lost track
Of what is history and what is a book marked page
I’d always hoped to come back to someday

Don’t speak too soon
I’ll likely shut my ears or shut down
I’m mostly floating
And I’m not ready to come down

Don’t wipe away my tears so quickly
Can you even tell if they’re happy or sad
Maybe I need to let them fall
Clean me up and wash me out
And let me drown for a while

You don’t have to hold my hand through this
You’ve got enough to carry on your own
I think you’ll need both hands for that
I think for now I’d be better off alone

Don’t speak too soon
I’ll likely shut my ears or shut down
I’m mostly floating
And I’m not ready to come down

I will be fine,
I need to grow
No expectations please
Because I don’t know
Where I’m going or where I even stand
I’m just trying to find out exactly who I am

Don’t speak too soon
I’ll likely shut my ears or shut down
I’m mostly floating
And I’m not ready to come down


 

After discovering Kina in 2012, she has definitely been one of my favourite artists and I’ve never turned away from listening to the content she creates since then.  I’ve recommended for all of you to listen to some of her songs in other music related posts I’ve written in the past, but here’s a song that deserves more than just a few sentences to describe the feelings it provokes within me.

As you can see from the title, this song is entitled  “Too Soon.”  I remember that day a couple weeks ago when I was just scrolling through YouTube and I stumbled upon this recent upload from Kina.  I clicked on it instantly and was looking forward to seeing how this song would speak to me.

Kina had me hooked on to this song within the first stanza…

Sometimes it’s hard to look you in the eye
The mess I’ve created it stands idly by
And I don’t expect the dishes to do themselves
But that sure would be nice

Her beautiful voice caught my full attention, my ears hanging on to every word.  When so many other songs out there are merely just a tune I enjoy singing or humming along to, Kina’s words struck home to me in a time where I felt like I could completely relate to the confusion and chaos she seemed to express.

I was in tears by the end of the song and hit the replay button at least three more times.  Honestly, I think I might have the song memorized word for word at this point now.  🙂  One of the main reasons why I haven’t been able to blog as much as I’ve wanted to over the past couple of months is because I’ve just felt the weight and pressure of what it means to be young and realizing that I have so much growing to do.  It has not been easy to take on the responsibilities my parents expect me to handle as the eldest child, to stay focused on my grades, to being on student council, to wanting to spend quality time with my friends, to spending quiet time with God.  Lately, it just seems that I never have enough time for everything I want and need to do.

I’m aware that I’m no superwoman – I will never be able to keep my life under strict control.  But I know that time management and knowing how to handle priorities is crucial to a well lived life, but so many distractions just seem to get in the way.  I admit that I’ve become rather emotional as I’ve begun to ponder on how the way I live my life now will affect what it will look like in the future.

As parents, teachers, and friends come by my side and try to guide me out of this tunnel, I am wholeheartedly grateful for their support yet at times, I feel like being bombarded with constant advice and tactics on how to improve myself tends to make me wallow and drown myself in self-pity even more…

Don’t speak too soon
I’ll likely shut my ears or shut down
I’m mostly floating
And I’m not ready to come down

I’ve realized that sometimes, all I need is just some quiet time alone.  Time to reflect on how I’m going to change my ways, how these changes are going to affect my lifestyle or the people around me, and simply where I plan to go from where I am now.  I definitely feel that the past little while has been a time of just floating around, trying to find stable ground for my anxious and worried soul to safely land.

I will be fine,
I need to grow
No expectations please
Because I don’t know
Where I’m going or where I even stand
I’m just trying to find out exactly who I am

This second last stanza is probably my favourite part of the whole song.  There are days where I feel completely unproductive and incapable with everything I want to accomplish.  But I guess it’s in the moments I feel most helpless and vulnerable that I realize that I can turn away from my limitations to a God who has none.  I realize that it’s okay to feel confused about who I am and what I want to do with my life.  I’m only 15, still young and naive.  I know that I’m a work in progress.  If I was completely able to handle everything on my own, I’ve realized that I wouldn’t need God, my family, and my friends.  The people that I hold closest to my heart.

If not for times of unrest and uneasiness, maybe I’d lose the inspiration to write.  The motivation to inspire.  The drive to endure trials like this to turn into a triumph to show the people around me that something good can come out of hardship.

So, again, I apologize for my inactivity over the past few months.  A few of you have already asked me to update my blog, so here it is. 🙂 As I still have a few days of Christmas Break left in my hands, I promise to do my best to make up for the slim amount of posts.  I hope you all understand the reason behind my absence.  I know I’ll get to where I need to be, someday. 🙂

Love always,

Ainah ❤

 

 

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MUSICAL MUSINGS., PERSONAL.

OH FOR GRACE.

12:11 am.

I sit at my desk nearly blinded by the light from my laptop.  Exactly one week until my new school year begins.  Just like I’ve elaborated in my last entry, I’m ready to welcome a new year with new challenges, new experiences, new trials, new triumphs,  huge blessings and huge joy.  What a year this will be.

This past couple of nights, I’ve been trying to improve my sleep schedule so it wouldn’t be a huge adjustment for me to be waking up at 6:30 in the morning, five days a week, again.   I must admit that I’ve been successful up until tonight.

A song that I’ve heard on a blog of this wonderful woman I was able to meet on the mission field would not stop playing in my head.  The sweet, sweet, melody that accompanied beautiful lyrics which state,  “Jesus, Jesus, how I trust you,” was stuck on replay.

For some reason, feelings of anxiety and fear crept into my mind as I realized that this new school year was approaching far faster than I expected.  I’ve usually been an optimist who has tried my best to console my nervous friends and classmates around this time of the year, but today… my mind was wrapped around the possibilities of what could go wrong this school year, whether it meant my academics, my roles on student council, my walk with God, or my social life.

It’s not easy being in high school in this time and age.  I do strongly believe that it is a time of transition between interdependence and independence.  The grip that teachers and parents have had on you your whole life starts to soften as they let you go experience both the beautiful and difficult realities of adulthood.

I don’t think that it’s some sheer coincidence that I felt God prompting me to go back and look at that blog post in which I discovered a wonderful old hymn called, “‘Tis So Sweet to Trust in Jesus.”  It’s timeless lyrics was what I needed to hear today.

I want to end off by quoting what this woman I met in Mexico wrote in her blog as she made a cover of this hymn,

 

“This song is a beautiful old hymn that has come to life again to me these days. In the middle of all of this craziness, these words go deep. It’s so sweet to trust in Jesus.

All of these times that I’ve looked into my future and not known how it is going to happen, I just have to look back at all the times that I’ve proved him over and over. 

Not that it’s that easy…I know I’ll have my days of feeling anxious. But as A.W. Tozer wrote, “I am painfully conscious of my need for further grace.” It’s not that easy, but it is that simple. Just to take him at his word. And he gives grace to do that. 

Oh for grace to trust him more.”  – Heather Molina

 

If you’d like to listen to Heather’s cover of this hymn, I’ll leave the link down below:

 

’Tis so sweet to trust in Jesus,
Just to take Him at His Word;
Just to rest upon His promise,
And to know, “Thus saith the Lord!

Refrain:
Jesus, Jesus, how I trust Him!
How I’ve proved Him o’er and o’er;
Jesus, Jesus, precious Jesus!
Oh, for grace to trust Him more!

Oh, how sweet to trust in Jesus,
Just to trust His cleansing blood;
And in simple faith to plunge me
’Neath the healing, cleansing flood!

Yes, ’tis sweet to trust in Jesus,
Just from sin and self to cease;
Just from Jesus simply taking
Life and rest, and joy and peace.

I’m so glad I learned to trust Thee,
Precious Jesus, Savior, Friend;
And I know that Thou art with me,
Wilt be with me to the end.

 

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PLAYLIST 02 | SUMMER FAVOURITES.

Here are a few songs I’ve enjoyed jamming out to these past couple of months. 🙂


PLAYLIST 02 | SUMMER FAVOURITES.

  1. Let It Go – James Bay
  2. Hold On (The Break) – Walk Off The Earth
  3. Paper Planes – East Of Avenue
  4. Like You – Tatiana Manaois
  5. Happy – Marina & The Diamonds
  6. Rise Up – Andra Day
  7. Lost Boy – Ruth B
  8. Can’t Sleep Love – Pentatonix (ft. Tink)
  9. Be Alright – Kehlani
  10. Don’t Let Me Down – The Chainsmokers
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PLAYLIST 01: NON-MAINSTREAM.

In my last Wednesday Currently post, a friend commented on how she started listening to Tatiana Manaois, one my favourite *non-mainstream* musicians.

Before I go on to revealing my playlist, I should take some time defining the term, “non-mainstream music.”  Basically, this is music that may not necessarily be played on every radio station out there or not ranked on Billboard’s Top 100.  However, this does not make the musician any less talented or the music any less entertaining to listen to.

I’ve created this new category called Musical Musings to share with y’all what I enjoy plugging my earphones into.  So, without further ado, here’s my first Playlist. 


PLAYLIST 01: NON-MAINSTREAM. 

  1. Anybody’s You – Christina Grimmie
  2. For Now – Kina Grannis
  3. Home – Reese Lansangan
  4. The View – April Nhem
  5. Weak – Daphne Khoo
  6. Just A Dream – Sam Tsui & Christina Grimmie (Cover)
  7. I Don’t Know My Name – Grace VanderWaal
  8. Over You – Ingrid Michaelson
  9. Deception – Christina Grimmie
  10. Friend of Mine – Odette Quesada*

*This is an 80’s song that I discovered from my dad.  If you know that you’re not particularly a fan of oldies music, I suggest you pass it by unless you do want to hear the lyrics that attracted me to the song.  🙂

** Every one has a different taste in music.  Maybe some songs will appeal to you more than others even if I love them all.  You are more than free to have your own opinion, as long as you are respectful of whatever others enjoy.  Radiate good vibes, always. 🙂

Hope you enjoy, lovelies!! ❤ ❤

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